4.23.13

I never really know how I want to start my blogs so I figured today I'll just ramble and go from there. Rambling FTW. Life has been...life lately. Up's, down's and everything in between. My boys are getting bigger and smarter by the day. Roman will be 10 in four months and I can't believe it. He was once my little buddy who slept in the same room as me. Just him and I. Now he's a cool little dude that runs and jumps and plays and wants to do all things *boy*. He is much like his mama though. He wears his heart on his sleeve, he's emotional and kind. I see a lot of myself in him. Kaden is 6 and full of bossiness and curiosity. He often asks when's the last time I've changed Seven's diaper or if he needs a fresh bottle. I have to remind him who the parent is in our relationship. He's so smart. And inquisitive. He's going places. They were both recently award recipients at school and I'm proud of them. Seven is at the ripe age of 18 months. He is funny, happy, and the king of the castle. He's finally walking and will converse with you about any topic of your choice. Although you may not understand his babbles and jibberish, you'll certainly enjoy his company.  They own my heart, that is for sure.

I'm still a work in progress when it comes to my anxiety but I've made great strides in the last year or two. I've pushed myself and worked hard to get where I am. It is never easy and always a struggle but the fight in me is there. I hope to be able to travel one day. Hopefully soon but I know that isn't a reality. I've finally made it back up to Bandimere. Such a good feeling to be there, to hear the roar of the cars that bring back so many beloved memories. Hopefully we'll be back there this summer for the events that will take place. I'd like to take the boys to Night of Fire and Thunder. I remember going there as a kid, the rumble in your chest as the dragsters and jet cars flew down the track. I'm so grateful that I'll be able to share that experience with my own kiddos.

We've recently moved into a house. It's SO good to be back into a home that has a backyard for the kids and dogs, a yard to garden and plant in, neighbors who that are the same age group with kids! I hope we're here for a long time until we can buy a place to really call our own. We're also officially done having babies. I thought that I would be sad but I'm not! I'm excited to grow our little family into great young men and spend the rest of my life being married and enjoying all of our many blessings. 3 is plenty I've come to realize. It's exhausting being a Mom but its always worth it.

I will be 29 in 5 months. Oh Lord. One year closer to 30. Bring it on....

Rambling done, I've got pork chops in the crock pot!